~Prince Charming~

Suddenly, I remember the days during my childhood, teen-age and now, Me and my girl-friends always like to talk or at least share the features, characteristics and what they hope from their unknown yet prince charming. Each of us has our very own hopes and fairytale (Well, if our prince charming has the same features, we might fall for the same guy, kan dah Gaduh Besar kat situ...cat fight? Different features...different people>>>a lot more safer).

 It's kind a fun to do a group of girl talk about this kind of matter especially during my high school time, with my crazy gang Senorita Grandeur aka SG. Funny but adorable discussion. You can see that girls will talk excitedly with hopes in the eyes, when they talk about their prince charming, sometimes... they can't even stop talk about it. If you're a girl, you'll understand exactly what I mean. Don't worry, this is NORMAL...

Girls, whether they're celebrities, commoners or royals. They're just the same, tend to fall for crush. For example, Recently, I've read an article at Yahoo.com about Emma Watson (Hermione) talked about her past crush upon Tom Felton (Draco) when they're young, however he didn't reciprocate. She talked about Tom as someone a bit older with his skateboard, having his own personality and appeared like a bad boy...."Every girl likes a bad boy," she said... (I kinda agree, so do my friends, but , not a bad boy as literally and solidly, of course). While Tom Felton during that time had crush upon a much older actress, Helena Bonham Carter... (Hurm, I'm a bit surprised). But, later did I recalled, yeah... crush could be anyone regardless age or anything. I  have experienced this. Everyone has. Boys and girls.

Hurm, how about my prince charming to-be? Well, it's gonna be a long, a very long description...

>PERSONALITY: Simply, just being himself. Someone that is comfortable with you, and you comfortable with and allow you to be yourself along the way. He can be bubbly or quiet sometimes. An intellectual, an equal and a best friend. Don't takes thing for granted. Willingly to get off the beaten path, and an open unconventional mind. Happily venture into new, strange or unknown intellectual and spiritual territories together = Ready to explored new things with me. Artistic, creative with different perspectives  and not skeptical. Private, sensitive and vulnerable.

> HAIR.The first thing I noticed about a guy is their hairstyles. I always find guy with a  bit long and and scruffy hair, handsome. And then, I'll called them as  'Handsome Hair". Believe it or not, hairstyles can actually tell you something about that person, maybe something like their personality or mood or the past events on their life. But beware, don't start to judge people based on the hair.

>MUSICIAN. Guy who knows how to play musical instrument (maybe, something like  guitar, piano, violin or harps.) or at least have an unique vocal, is very attractive in my opinion as they have this kind of artistic aura and surely share the same passion in music like me. Some says, a musician is actually a very sensitive and considerate person, you can hear and read it through their song-writing. Too easy to fall in crush with musician, some are unique.

>GENTLEMAN. Know how to appreciate his mother, sister, younger sister, friend of girl. Care and protect them from any kind of mistreatment. This actually one of the most important trait a man should have. If they don't have this, it's better to leave them.

>PIOUS. If he is a muslim, at least he should know and take care of  his solat 5times a day, recite Al-Quran, understand and know Islam very well. Amin. But, for certain cases, if he wasn't, insya-ALLAH, when he embrace Islam, he really mean it in searching Allah's blessing and not other. This is so crucial. He doesn't have to be perfect but at least he want to change for good, so do me. (Heart melting)

>ACCEPTANCE: Accept me just the way I am. and I accept him just the way he is. Tolerate and mutual understanding.

>Woohoo, I bubbling too much. and yet, I can't complete this yet...Insya-ALLAH, I'll shall continue...and you can share yours at here... (^_-)!

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Suddenly... when the midnight almost here.

Suddenly when the midnight is almost here, all the insecurities feeling and low self-esteem struck me. I don't know where those things come from, but I know that teenager tend to feel that why as they were force to get out from their childhood phases and walk into the life of adult (well it's not that bad and creepy, but still it's nothing to compared childhood).

Maybe, all these things are caused by the longing that I kept way too long in my heart and often deny it by acting so strong and nothing is wrong. The rock song that I listen right now, is making the feeling more obvious and not helping at all in cooling down all the feeling right here, right now. (BTW: The song is by Red-Pieces).

At home, when I see the faces of my beloved mom and dad, sister and twin... I feel so secure and lovely, grateful and fortunate for everything that I had and have in life. While many others don't have that kind of privileges. Some lost their mom or dad, cool brother or sister. But, me... I have everything. So, why should I complaint much?

Only ALLAH S.W.T can describe every little thing that happens in my heart now, things that not even myself can put to word. Often, I let the music say it all. Guess, I lost some crucial pieces of my soul and been thinking it way too frequent sometimes. Been missing somebody that I never meet and never know personally. Who is he? I don't know. Let ALLAH and time say it all. Doa is the important for every mu'min and Belief is the important key in Believing.


Hurm,enough with sad story for now. Just now, I take a personality test from a website called FunBrain while doing my creepy Grammar games.(and hey, maybe you can try some at here: http://www.funbrain.com/cgi-bin/person.cgi?A1=quest&A2=0) They've got three parts. SOmetimes, it is fun to see what these apps developer have something to say about you. Some maybe real, but some may also based on false assumption. Moreover, people who taking the quiz may choose the answer that actually doesn't reflect themselves in real life or maybe, the answers were too narrow and not enough choices. So, sometimes the exact and precise answer can't be choose...

Well, I've got interesting result. I often get most of them when try for other personality quiz at another place and people describe me this way. But yeah, I don't like to be labelled and stick to the features like firmly. I'm just being me. That's more important: Here are mine:

Sis Kiera:
a straightforward, honest person
• a snacker (not sure, what does it mean with snacker...like to eat snack maybe??)
• a creative person (some people called me artistic. well, I love anything about art)
• a leader
• a relaxed, informal person (I love the word =COOL <my fav word of all time)
• an intellectual
.a word person
• a cooperative person (well, when people are being cooperative and not fussy with me for sure)
• a shy person

the title: Why Do We Pray?

Today is  my impromptu speech turn. So yeah, I thought it'll be a one-to-one session with my lecturer like the several previous session batches of my classmates. But guess what, it wasn't. And yeah, the thought that I have to speak (deliver a speech) in front of people started to freak me out. I'm not an excellence speaker that has all the gut and confidence to speak in front of people, I'm just an ordinary people that will be shivering when I'm so nervous. 

Not to say that I'm a fluent English speaker, but when I start to stand in front of people, with all eyes on me, I started to become blur and then, here it goes, multiple glaring mistakes of grammar flow out from my mouth at the time of speaking. I feel so silly and asking myself "What's wrong with you? You can speak English non-stop with your sister, and then, how come now, you can't speak English in front of them?". I'm clueless...

However, the best part of all the time is the title that I've got for my speech.... "Why do We Pray?" which I don't expected at all. Hurm, that title actually very spiritual and personal to me, so yeah, when I need to speak about it in front of the class, it kinds of Awkward.


<TO BE CONTINUED, the time has jealousy issues with me, here.

My 19th Year on Earth...

My 19th year on the Earth soon will be finished and replaced by my 20th year on Earth. Yet, I have so many ambition and goals that still on the list and not in reality... hurm, sometimes, I look at myself on the mirror and says "Am I born to write my dreams only onto a piece of bare paper and not to make it reality? Am I a loser? Am I a quitter? Am I? Am I?"... There you have it, a thousand unresolved questions from a teenager. Only left 8-9 months before my upcoming 20th year on earth (uh, you know what I mean... the day when I was born into this wide world). List of thing that I must done during my 19th still clearly written and untouched with any remarks of DONE.

Okay, I can't write much. Time has been so jealous with the pleasure I have here. So yeah, gotta log-out and continue it soon.  

Me as a Teenager and a Writer

I am a teenager at least for now. I have so many dreams and ambitions to be fulfill until I oftenly neglecting my own needs which are far more important becoz without 'em... I, you and we can't live.
As a teenager, I always had a thrilling excitement when it's come to "Get Inspired and Be Inspired". Inspiration just don't come in vain. Every inspiration has means and reasons to be used. That's why during my high school time, I always had a self-modify note book to jot down every little things that make me moved and excited.

But now as a becoming-adult and less teenager, everything seems so dull more than ever. The stress of life survival in career, family,mates and etc. All things seems to pull you in a "black-hole corner", so that you could dive and die together with the "STRESS".
Many actually don't realizes that stress is a silent killer and a silent timed bomb, Once the clock races to the finish line... BOOM... disasters happens!

Stress can't be stop if it's not cured. Stress is not a common but a diseases. Stress is harmful and not harmless... So, step ahead... look yourself in the mirror and say "Calmness is only need...

...I.N.T.R.O.D.U.C.T.I.O.N...

Assalam or Good Morning/Afternoon/Evening to all of you. I'm Kiera Luvsis, (real life name..? let's keep it for now). And hey, how about yours? Really, nice to meet your acquaintance.
Born on 17th April 1993... So yeah, this year I'm 19. Another year coming, just add another number. Who am I? Hurm, basically I am a humanbeing like you. Okay... okay, no joke. How do I explain myself in phrase?

I'm a independent (indie) writer, novelist, musician,pianist, songstress-songwriter,journalist, video editor/maker and anything that related to my interest. Alright, just to make everything's clear... Independent here (according to what I actually means is that I work on my own or maybe some collaboration with my twin sister.
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By the way, if you find any grammar errors in my entries, please pardona me. And if it's bother you so much, please let me know, okay! Alright, it is nice to meet you. See ya!!! ~~~(^.^)~~~