For 30 % you are: Mysterious and Aloof.

Aaah so you get the lone world. You can probably spot him because he is more independent. This type can go down two routes - the smart, intelligent route or the arty creative route. Either way, he'll be very endearing and you'll be curious to know more about him. Not many people know much and he usually keeps to himself. At first he'll seem reserved and shy but he is actually assessing the situation. Mysterious and aloof guys tend to experience things very intensely and so he will date upon you and adore you with everything he has. He's a lover not a fighter and would make the perfect boyfriend:)

Haha, for fun... Get tricked?

Getting to know the real one...

Dear Life,

Is it only me or it is true what lies in front of me? I like to think positive and burn down all the negative thoughts, but if it's truth, I can't do anything not even denying but to observe what will happen next? The body language, face reaction, voice tone, the words flow out her/his mouth can be understand much.  Something wrong there and what been said sometimes is not what actually written in the heart.

Observant and experienced. Be careful and watch your back... beware someone might backstabbing you with no second thought. Option less leave you with no choice. They might see something interesting in you to be taking advantages of, and once they done with you and found another allies, you are ready to be dump. Then, when you need them, they will ask you to beg on your knees like nothing happens before. They may even snatch someone you knew, been telling story and leaving you alone like a bad guys here. Ouch, the truth does hurt. Story untold.

However, in becoming careful, sometimes or most of the times, negative thought and perception could destroy a relationship or friendship especially when you don't have proof and everything was basically on what other so-called people have to said about your beloved/friends when they know nothing about them. So, observe and experience it yourself instead of directly swallow all the so-called truth from so-called 'honest' people. Well, if you are an honest people, you can differentiate it yourself. Be careful... don't turn yourself to a predator and hurt other innocent, get rid all the false assumption. It's better to get hurt than hurt others. Why? Because you know what damage they have done to you,leave you with option, to heal or to hold? But if you hurt others... you never know what kind of damage that you have caused and turn them to?. So yeah, life is too short. Live happily ever after and watch your back. I'm so sorry if the tone is way too cynical.
 
Good luck.   

Sometimes, we don't get...

Assalamualaikum w.b.t and hi there...

It's been ages since my last writing in this lovely blog. Yeah, back to post title... there's a cliff-hang... well, title shouldn't been too long, right? Why? cause it will be tiring to read.

             Sometimes, we don't get what we want, in the way that we wanted, there, you have it... the whole ideas of my post tonight. As an ordinary human being, we tend to expect the fairytale-kind of reality, instead of cherished what we've got in a grateful way. 

               Sometimes, we think that we are the most unfortunate people in the world while the truth is, there's a lot more unfortunate people out there wish to be where we are now and breath the same air, "Air of Happiness" ... 

                     I remember a famous HAMKA, said "The poorest man is the one with a lot of wishes/demand. While the richest man is the one with the least wishes/demands," A really inspiring quote about man's gratefulness.

                  

                    

~Prince Charming~

Suddenly, I remember the days during my childhood, teen-age and now, Me and my girl-friends always like to talk or at least share the features, characteristics and what they hope from their unknown yet prince charming. Each of us has our very own hopes and fairytale (Well, if our prince charming has the same features, we might fall for the same guy, kan dah Gaduh Besar kat situ...cat fight? Different features...different people>>>a lot more safer).

 It's kind a fun to do a group of girl talk about this kind of matter especially during my high school time, with my crazy gang Senorita Grandeur aka SG. Funny but adorable discussion. You can see that girls will talk excitedly with hopes in the eyes, when they talk about their prince charming, sometimes... they can't even stop talk about it. If you're a girl, you'll understand exactly what I mean. Don't worry, this is NORMAL...

Girls, whether they're celebrities, commoners or royals. They're just the same, tend to fall for crush. For example, Recently, I've read an article at Yahoo.com about Emma Watson (Hermione) talked about her past crush upon Tom Felton (Draco) when they're young, however he didn't reciprocate. She talked about Tom as someone a bit older with his skateboard, having his own personality and appeared like a bad boy...."Every girl likes a bad boy," she said... (I kinda agree, so do my friends, but , not a bad boy as literally and solidly, of course). While Tom Felton during that time had crush upon a much older actress, Helena Bonham Carter... (Hurm, I'm a bit surprised). But, later did I recalled, yeah... crush could be anyone regardless age or anything. I  have experienced this. Everyone has. Boys and girls.

Hurm, how about my prince charming to-be? Well, it's gonna be a long, a very long description...

>PERSONALITY: Simply, just being himself. Someone that is comfortable with you, and you comfortable with and allow you to be yourself along the way. He can be bubbly or quiet sometimes. An intellectual, an equal and a best friend. Don't takes thing for granted. Willingly to get off the beaten path, and an open unconventional mind. Happily venture into new, strange or unknown intellectual and spiritual territories together = Ready to explored new things with me. Artistic, creative with different perspectives  and not skeptical. Private, sensitive and vulnerable.

> HAIR.The first thing I noticed about a guy is their hairstyles. I always find guy with a  bit long and and scruffy hair, handsome. And then, I'll called them as  'Handsome Hair". Believe it or not, hairstyles can actually tell you something about that person, maybe something like their personality or mood or the past events on their life. But beware, don't start to judge people based on the hair.

>MUSICIAN. Guy who knows how to play musical instrument (maybe, something like  guitar, piano, violin or harps.) or at least have an unique vocal, is very attractive in my opinion as they have this kind of artistic aura and surely share the same passion in music like me. Some says, a musician is actually a very sensitive and considerate person, you can hear and read it through their song-writing. Too easy to fall in crush with musician, some are unique.

>GENTLEMAN. Know how to appreciate his mother, sister, younger sister, friend of girl. Care and protect them from any kind of mistreatment. This actually one of the most important trait a man should have. If they don't have this, it's better to leave them.

>PIOUS. If he is a muslim, at least he should know and take care of  his solat 5times a day, recite Al-Quran, understand and know Islam very well. Amin. But, for certain cases, if he wasn't, insya-ALLAH, when he embrace Islam, he really mean it in searching Allah's blessing and not other. This is so crucial. He doesn't have to be perfect but at least he want to change for good, so do me. (Heart melting)

>ACCEPTANCE: Accept me just the way I am. and I accept him just the way he is. Tolerate and mutual understanding.

>Woohoo, I bubbling too much. and yet, I can't complete this yet...Insya-ALLAH, I'll shall continue...and you can share yours at here... (^_-)!

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Suddenly... when the midnight almost here.

Suddenly when the midnight is almost here, all the insecurities feeling and low self-esteem struck me. I don't know where those things come from, but I know that teenager tend to feel that why as they were force to get out from their childhood phases and walk into the life of adult (well it's not that bad and creepy, but still it's nothing to compared childhood).

Maybe, all these things are caused by the longing that I kept way too long in my heart and often deny it by acting so strong and nothing is wrong. The rock song that I listen right now, is making the feeling more obvious and not helping at all in cooling down all the feeling right here, right now. (BTW: The song is by Red-Pieces).

At home, when I see the faces of my beloved mom and dad, sister and twin... I feel so secure and lovely, grateful and fortunate for everything that I had and have in life. While many others don't have that kind of privileges. Some lost their mom or dad, cool brother or sister. But, me... I have everything. So, why should I complaint much?

Only ALLAH S.W.T can describe every little thing that happens in my heart now, things that not even myself can put to word. Often, I let the music say it all. Guess, I lost some crucial pieces of my soul and been thinking it way too frequent sometimes. Been missing somebody that I never meet and never know personally. Who is he? I don't know. Let ALLAH and time say it all. Doa is the important for every mu'min and Belief is the important key in Believing.


Hurm,enough with sad story for now. Just now, I take a personality test from a website called FunBrain while doing my creepy Grammar games.(and hey, maybe you can try some at here: http://www.funbrain.com/cgi-bin/person.cgi?A1=quest&A2=0) They've got three parts. SOmetimes, it is fun to see what these apps developer have something to say about you. Some maybe real, but some may also based on false assumption. Moreover, people who taking the quiz may choose the answer that actually doesn't reflect themselves in real life or maybe, the answers were too narrow and not enough choices. So, sometimes the exact and precise answer can't be choose...

Well, I've got interesting result. I often get most of them when try for other personality quiz at another place and people describe me this way. But yeah, I don't like to be labelled and stick to the features like firmly. I'm just being me. That's more important: Here are mine:

Sis Kiera:
a straightforward, honest person
• a snacker (not sure, what does it mean with snacker...like to eat snack maybe??)
• a creative person (some people called me artistic. well, I love anything about art)
• a leader
• a relaxed, informal person (I love the word =COOL <my fav word of all time)
• an intellectual
.a word person
• a cooperative person (well, when people are being cooperative and not fussy with me for sure)
• a shy person

the title: Why Do We Pray?

Today is  my impromptu speech turn. So yeah, I thought it'll be a one-to-one session with my lecturer like the several previous session batches of my classmates. But guess what, it wasn't. And yeah, the thought that I have to speak (deliver a speech) in front of people started to freak me out. I'm not an excellence speaker that has all the gut and confidence to speak in front of people, I'm just an ordinary people that will be shivering when I'm so nervous. 

Not to say that I'm a fluent English speaker, but when I start to stand in front of people, with all eyes on me, I started to become blur and then, here it goes, multiple glaring mistakes of grammar flow out from my mouth at the time of speaking. I feel so silly and asking myself "What's wrong with you? You can speak English non-stop with your sister, and then, how come now, you can't speak English in front of them?". I'm clueless...

However, the best part of all the time is the title that I've got for my speech.... "Why do We Pray?" which I don't expected at all. Hurm, that title actually very spiritual and personal to me, so yeah, when I need to speak about it in front of the class, it kinds of Awkward.


<TO BE CONTINUED, the time has jealousy issues with me, here.

My 19th Year on Earth...

My 19th year on the Earth soon will be finished and replaced by my 20th year on Earth. Yet, I have so many ambition and goals that still on the list and not in reality... hurm, sometimes, I look at myself on the mirror and says "Am I born to write my dreams only onto a piece of bare paper and not to make it reality? Am I a loser? Am I a quitter? Am I? Am I?"... There you have it, a thousand unresolved questions from a teenager. Only left 8-9 months before my upcoming 20th year on earth (uh, you know what I mean... the day when I was born into this wide world). List of thing that I must done during my 19th still clearly written and untouched with any remarks of DONE.

Okay, I can't write much. Time has been so jealous with the pleasure I have here. So yeah, gotta log-out and continue it soon.